Fate? 2nd chance?

hi all, im back after 2 days! i SHOULD be abit different now? haha. All i can say is, the past 2 days had been the most inspiring experience in my life so far. The selection is actually not of selecting, but 2 days of pondering questions that will get u enlightened, if u think ur as common as mi.. Im not kidding la.. though im still very green to the outside world.. think say much oso no use cos one nid to see and hear to believe. To be able to hear and tok to a wise man is an incredible experience.. not onli hez chim, he is also very humourous k. I think i can counsel and advice u all wif the philosophies he imparted to us, should any of u all reading feel down. hehehe. To me, i think being selected or not is not the issue anymore.. but to fail after attending this selection thhingy is an issue.

As expected.. ppl find it hard to believe i went for such thing.. introvert, quiet bla bla. But to my surprise, most participants there are also those introvert type as they claimed -.- And those like mi had the same objective.. to have a change. Also, the joined without strong desire of getting selected .. like mi..haha. As much as i wanted to change myself, i do not wish to change my heart.. Even the mentors also claimed themselves veri quiet at 1st.. i dono. now i think maybe is a way to psycho ppl.. :P OK. there a few pretty gals there.. and im in the same group as them! :D and another guy.. pretty gals i think nothing new to tok abt so..

Therez this gal, i got stunned with a unbeliving face when i first saw her.. she is like an exact replica of the gal i admired during the 4 years in my sec sch days.. i cannot believe my eyes and i dun think she has a sister. According to standards, i dun think shez considered the very pretty and appealing type to most guys. But the contour of the face, the cheeks, is something tat attracts me subconsciously.. i consider that as the most beautiful feature, follows by the eyes.. of all these years, looking at gals on the streets..i super hardly come across 1.. its a 1 in a million chance. Even her voice and the way she speaks is also similar.. onli diff is shez taller and wif braces! haha. arbase la.. very natural, simple and innocent. Fate playing wif mi ah? Because i didnt try any shit back in sec sch days.. i decided to TRY this time round.. 1 in a million change leh siao eh. at least get hold of contact.. but therez this stupid rule tat stated no exchange of contacts of any form is allowed. I tried to trick her into it.. but shez too innocent.. if mi, i would have use the impt army rule.. do anything but dont get caught. fark, im evil. Note, i DO NOT have any funni ideas.. juz trying to learn.. Too bad we have different mentor.. if same mentor..den i think is god's arrangement haha.. as usual, fate ware got so good? it always sets irritating obstacles for u to overcome to prove sincerity..

i dislike ppl who judge ppl base on 1st impression.. the past few days had been my ugliest form in life.. acneS popping out, dried up skin with flakes on BOTH CHEEKS, cracked lips, styleless hair.. and im facing ppl .. alot of ppl in frenly distances.. sian thx.. c my self in the mirror also super low morale..thought ppl will shun mi.. she still tok to mi with laughter.. (actually everyone talks to me the same way) sometimes she initiated to talk to mi.. asking mi simple questions.. like, what u eat juz now? ..to me, its a very touching gesture.. very seldom gals ask mi personal questions.. although i think its juz some normal stupid question to some.. simple things yet sweet n meaningful.. a personal fav question i like is, what u doing? haha. Running suddenly to u and other ppl to bid goodbye is.. a very sincere small action of appreciation.... Maybe tat explains why shez involved with volunteering work.. i nid to be wif such type of ppl.. so i can discover happiness from simple things in life.

Although all these onli lasted 2 days, but it was 2 quality days.. and im thankful for tat. THings dun last forever.. tatz y we nidda treasure the moments and make things happen. Enjoy ppls company while they last.. easy to say/type :D..

And i think i have found the answer.. i do not have phobia of erm.., unless i harbour funny intentions..

Ok im back to reality.. i hate it when it comes to parting..i like things to be forever sometimes, but tats quite impossible.. the selection result will be made known tml..