Last 2nd week in camp
..hmmm. the week past quite slow.. maybe too used to civilian life.. but actually quite fast.. as i regretted not grabbing the chances due to my procastinate nature.. ima really .. SLOWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWwwwwwwwwwwwwwww. Said getting held up at work is an excuse.. but also becoz of some external factors.. something that is easier said than done.. tatz how to get unaffected by other ppl's view or opinions on ur doings... not tihnking abt wat other ppl think is actually quite hard. This really affects mi, for i think im living on other's ppl view.. but im trying.
Initially wanted to stay back n help out in the office.. but due to the work at my site was not done, it was too late then.. Really regret not helping out on thursday... Wanted to say some things.. but did not.. jay chou's 总是开不了口 让你知道.. must learn how to ignore external factors... in the end OT until 9pm.. to prepare for next week LRI.. juz in time for the 9pm ch8 drama last episode.. a pretty touching show... becoz of the trailer that showed siwei n yexue together, i must watch the last ep. I was touched by 1 part.. where the father was killed by not her real daugher, and he useed his last breathe to hide the evidence (her bracelet) else where... hoping she wont get caught.. rarely see such murder scene... The previous episode was nice too.. 2 scenerios gave mi deep impressions n imaginations.. siwei was holding on to yexue hand to guide her way becoz she cant c, and yexue rejected and said he purposely hold her because she cant c. The next moment she tripped n fell and siwei hold on to her. And he said she purposely fell so to let him hold her. So cheeky~ The other was, when the sean toking sense to siwei to wake him up from his wife's death.. Siwei popped this question to him. "What do humans live for ". Sean replied, we live for the ones we loved. A question that i once thought of.. he had got a point i got a point to retort.. what if one has no one to love=no point living? i realized that living for oneself is quite meaningless already.. seeing the ones around u happy is really more meaningful than yourself being happy.. that joy of spending small little tokens on ppl is much more than spending on ourselves.. but tat doesnt mean i will go around n do free charity la..
Eventhough im finally released since last sunday (duty), but onli my body is released, not my mind. My mind is still trapped.. it juz can't stop running unless im asleep. Even when listening to my mp3s, it still could not disrupt my thinkings.. Such situations is really bad for health.. and it led to dreaming of some1 in the sleep for four consecutive nights.. first time in my life.. ima going crazy. i nid c M.O or psychiatrist. i nidda avoid such situations if it happens to come into my life agian.. maybe i will juz find a job n work n work, forget abt other realities until i die... ima tired.. i nidda rest.. not my body, but my mind.
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Saw the news on Monday that next monday, taxi fares will go up. Not buy abit.. but ALOT! Singapore is too much.. kip increase n increase. since when got decrease. ppl will gett used to the increase price that nobody complained already. Then my fren mentioned abt the progress package.. how can a short term incentive resolve a long term issue.. to think that i book in everyweek by taxi..
Initially wanted to stay back n help out in the office.. but due to the work at my site was not done, it was too late then.. Really regret not helping out on thursday... Wanted to say some things.. but did not.. jay chou's 总是开不了口 让你知道.. must learn how to ignore external factors... in the end OT until 9pm.. to prepare for next week LRI.. juz in time for the 9pm ch8 drama last episode.. a pretty touching show... becoz of the trailer that showed siwei n yexue together, i must watch the last ep. I was touched by 1 part.. where the father was killed by not her real daugher, and he useed his last breathe to hide the evidence (her bracelet) else where... hoping she wont get caught.. rarely see such murder scene... The previous episode was nice too.. 2 scenerios gave mi deep impressions n imaginations.. siwei was holding on to yexue hand to guide her way becoz she cant c, and yexue rejected and said he purposely hold her because she cant c. The next moment she tripped n fell and siwei hold on to her. And he said she purposely fell so to let him hold her. So cheeky~ The other was, when the sean toking sense to siwei to wake him up from his wife's death.. Siwei popped this question to him. "What do humans live for ". Sean replied, we live for the ones we loved. A question that i once thought of.. he had got a point i got a point to retort.. what if one has no one to love=no point living? i realized that living for oneself is quite meaningless already.. seeing the ones around u happy is really more meaningful than yourself being happy.. that joy of spending small little tokens on ppl is much more than spending on ourselves.. but tat doesnt mean i will go around n do free charity la..
Eventhough im finally released since last sunday (duty), but onli my body is released, not my mind. My mind is still trapped.. it juz can't stop running unless im asleep. Even when listening to my mp3s, it still could not disrupt my thinkings.. Such situations is really bad for health.. and it led to dreaming of some1 in the sleep for four consecutive nights.. first time in my life.. ima going crazy. i nid c M.O or psychiatrist. i nidda avoid such situations if it happens to come into my life agian.. maybe i will juz find a job n work n work, forget abt other realities until i die... ima tired.. i nidda rest.. not my body, but my mind.
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Saw the news on Monday that next monday, taxi fares will go up. Not buy abit.. but ALOT! Singapore is too much.. kip increase n increase. since when got decrease. ppl will gett used to the increase price that nobody complained already. Then my fren mentioned abt the progress package.. how can a short term incentive resolve a long term issue.. to think that i book in everyweek by taxi..
posted by Hanzy at
1:57 PM
